As the years go by...

Junior,
Just as you and I were once siblings, and now by no choice of mine, we are no longer sharing a life journey, all I can do is let you know what is going on with our family, one that by your choice, you have disappeared from.
Our Tía Nancy Rodriguez, our dad's sister, passed away last week. She now joins her son, Adam, our cousin. Mom had a dream of dad just a couple of days before as if to acknowledge he had a special key for someone. Then Tía passed away. Our prayers go out to our family in need right now. You are still family, like it or not and I will continue to talk to you, wait for you...
Your little sister,
Cindy

K.I T.

A word to the missing brother...

Keeping in touch is of vital interest for us since our lives have advanced 42 years...

Not by choice...

We are still frozen in disbelief...

Getting out of this will take a miracle...

One you possess in your hands...

Maria de Jesus Felan Realme (De La Fuente) Leon

R. I. P. 

Obituary

Junior,

September 27th was a very sad day for us. Our oldest Aunt, Tía Chita, passed away early that morning. Our cousins, Neddy and Richard, were right by her side. So many people came to visit her and pay their respects. She was honored by so many. It is still unbelievable and time just keeps pushing us forward, not allowing us to hold our breath and see if we can change things or freeze. I will never forget what our Tía Chita did for us especially when you went missing. You will not remember because you were not on this side of the mysterious happenings of your whereabouts. Tía took care of me when Mom and Dad were out doing whatever they could to find you. Never mind that she had her  own 5 kids to look after, she did not mind another kid to look after. I loved her very much and I know that she felt deeply sad over your disappearance. It would have been nice to know something about you before she left us, but like everyone else keeps saying, don't look to the past, it is over. Well, not for me. I will continue to cherish her memory. And yours.

Voices

To hear her voice,
You dial that number.
You now know she is okay.
You may know more than what we do.
That is obvious by now.
After 41 years,
The courage becomes a crutch
because the only thing that you can do now
to hear her voice
is to dial that number.
Don't think she does not know-
It is the first thing she thinks about.
she knows it is you.

A brother in her eyes

Cindy longs to see your face
without a clue of what your features look like
She looks for you, her missing brother
without your knowledge she stares and gazes
what she sees
of what she recalls
with the eyes of an eleven year old
you, her only brother
her companion and playmate
her hero
simply now
a brother in her eyes

56 Years ago today

You were born.

Happy 56th Birthday 

My dear brother

Wherever you are

Know that we await your return

Not your intention

Tell me it was not your intention...

It was not your intention for tears to swell in my eyes when I see a brother and sister together

It was not your intention for you to hurt me so much

It was not your intention to make me dwell on the past

It was not your intention to make me think about you every single day

It just was not your intention for the memories we once shared to be forgotten

It was not your intention to stay away so long

It just was not your intention for this to turn out as it has

My intentions are to keep writing to you

To let you know that we still love you

We miss you

We 

I

the intentions we have are many

most good ones

but quickly forgotten

few bad ones

inadvertently remembered

Memories can be saved

Just intend to have a happy ending one day

Let's agree to attend to our intentions

Soon